HATE

; CHURCH WAS AWESOME! LOVE E290 :D

So i asked God to tell me whether if i should forget or wait for him. Somehow i have a feeling he wants me to wait. lol, cos i anyhow flipped one page of my sis's 'our journey ;daily walk in the word' book and it says "waiting" hmmmmmm. okay i'm talking nonsense. X:

I really want to hate this person. :( Everytime i go the person's blog my blood is like boiling and and heart is breaking -.- so stupid lor, i never had such a strong urge to hate someone. But i just can't do it! I think love her too much. IT ISN'T RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shouldn't be. I should just cut off all connection with her and heed my daddy's advice. BUT I JUST COULDN'T DO IT! argh! Something is seriously wrong with me. D: Firstly i cannot forget him,even tho its been 1year and 8 months. Secondly, i just kept letting my 'friend' take advantage of me like nobody's business. OK, whatever, sry . i just needed to get this out of my heart /: i don't feel so bad now, and i don't wna hate her now :) <3 God.

"It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness."
~Deb Caletti, Honey, Baby, Sweetheart

HAHA. i spent away my friday night, saturday /: now its 8 plus and i haven't done anything related to school. hmph, 4tests 2projs next week.