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ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo blogger is screwed again :(
it cheated my feelings :(

YAY!

YAYAYAYAYAY! blogger's back to normal :)

GREAT :D

Today, i had a GREAT day! How about you? haha. I was so glad i brought Congrun to church and he became happier ( or so he claims ) :D YAY! Thank God!

Blogger is partially back to normal, i think. At least the small box is back to the big box! haha. Isn't that great? I was actually going to try on livejournal if things here didn't get better. Haha :) Wordpress is actually good, but it can't put the dailybibleverse thing! lol XP livejournal can leh! :D :D

Next week i'd have 5 tests T.T but nevermind. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME! :D haha. So yeah, God is Great!

To honey: HAHA. M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E! HAHA. the show like dora the explorer like that haha XP

okay, gotta go off and do hw :D bye!
HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD!

Blogger doesn't like me lol

HI! * waves *

(: xiaoshi told me its possible to blog with this small box over here. haha. Since when blogger decided to be 'cute' on me?! haha. Its sad i can't post pictures or anything. :( seems like theres nothing except this small box.

YAY! i love my new phone( i hope i will love it a.l.a.i.l) figure that out yourself. alail is not its name :)

So my parents decided to buy more tv channels. and now i've got boomberang(?) i dno channel 36 :) I WAS JUMPING AROUND THE WHOLE HOUSE BECAUSE NOW I CAN WATCH POPEYE!! yesyes, i am so childish, i still love popeye and adore scoobydoo. mickeymouse's last century.

How i wish people would stop having such high expectations of me. its not everyday i can score a 19/20 ok! lol :)

pink

; Unfortunately i'm a little obsessed with pink
Got a pink phone pink bag pink house x100000000 more pink stuff. Lol.

I am deciding whether to change colour to like.

-Blue?
cannot i like before

-Yellow
abit weird

-Green
i dont like durians

-Red
too hot for me

-Black
later julian say i emo

soooooooo. maybe white brown or silver. ok, i am so bored i'm posting about colours, X.X

Should i change phone number?

from 9******* to 9******* ? ( look the same right ! lol)

choice

; millions of people are crying now. Its kind of 'trend' nowadays you know. I mean , not crying trend but people hurting other people is kinda the 'in' thing now. Either the world's getter meaner and people are getting more and more evil or that people are getting more and more oversensitive. I ADMIT I AM VERY SENSITIVE. but some people are really insensitive to the feelings of others.


1 Corinthians 6:7 (New King James Version)
7 Now therefore, it is already an utter failure for you that you go to law against one another. Why do you not rather accept wrong? Why do you not rather let yourselves be cheated?


yeah, why don't we let ourselves be cheated? i let others cheat me a gazillion times. ok, im not so great so please note i'm exaggerating. XP But yeah, people lie & i know but i kept quiet. People hurt my feelings , i chose not to tell them. Whats the use anyway, since at the end of the day, it will all be ok?Have you realised? no matter how hurt you are, time indeed heals. You might never forget, but after awhile it won't hurt anymore.After awhile, you'll stop crying. After awhile you will find yourself smiling again. Close friends run away. They stop caring. Doesn't mean WE have to follow suit. Close friends betrayed you , yet you can still choose to trust them again. Sometimes we just have to let ourselves be at the disadvantage and trust God to do the healing.

Then again, misunderstandings are everywhere. Caused by people 'jumping' into conclusions. like human nature you know. haha.

Philippians 2:4 (New International Version)
4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.


This is my desperate attempt to make the world a better place.lol. but seriously. i am serious.take a look around the world and tell me i'm wrong. haha. i am always wrong, but always right ^^

Swimming

; 1 Corinthians 16:13 (New International Version)
13Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.

Haha. I don't know why i can't stop laughing whenever i'm in water. lol. Even kimberley's brother thinks i'm crazy! O: hahahaha.

Chem test was pretty hard. I think i'm gna fail. But its okay:) i can do better next time! :D I CAN I CAN I CAN DO IT, but only with God.

): didn't change phone today. My sis bought w980. Mummy says she'll buy for me tmr :) *prays hard*

I feel rich in pet society. lol. Spent like 2,000 coins today :D & got a wallpaper -.- haha.

Friends come friends go. Boyfriends come boyfriends go. Bestfriends come and bestfriends go. I come to realize that most people only stay for a period of time.Then they get bored of you and throw you away, and run away with somebody else. I still seem to be where we started, but friends , where are you all now?/: ( NOT BEING EMO OR NEGATIVE HERE!I AM PERFECTLY HAPPY. I've still got great friends that will prove my theory wrong :D )


;OHOH.. thanks Jeremy Janice Jiahui for bday presents :)

Why can't i think of a title for this post?

; love my meowmeow ! you guys can go and visit her. She vlonely nowadays :( argh , all those tests and projects X.X only now then got time :( haha, but. BETTER than nothing!

Today's history presentation was rather awkward @.@ lol. AHHHHHHHHH. i always screw up presentations, so yeah. not surprising. XD

After school went shopping with xiaoshi and kimberley! I didn't buy anything. I'm trying to save up for a new phone! :D maybe changing tmr. haha. yay!

ohyeahhhhhhhhhh, I am so glad God never fails to answer my prayers! haha. I was praying that my group won't have to do ss presentation today and it came true ^^ lol. && i was almost late for school yesterday. Nearly had a panic attack ( ok maybe i'm overeacting and partially exaggerating. XP ) In normal curcumstances, i would be late. Which i think , would the the third time late this year? The last thing i want is the school calling my mum to complain ): haha, so i asked God to let me reach school on time :))))))))))))

Busy week

; sleeeping late everyday :(

I think i'm going to have panda eyes soon ! haha. I AM SO GLAD PHYSICS TEST IS POSTPONED! I was like praying desperately the past few days! /: too busy to study for physics which already :) so THANKGOD! So i am going to start on SS project soon. and the time now is 9.55 pm. ><

hehehehehehehe. although i am so tired -.- i am glad i'm able to stay 'awake' during lessons. A little thanks to Julian, haha , but seriously. DO I LOOK SAD MOST OF THE TIME? He claims i'm emo :( Which is totally the opposite /: HAHA :D


All those who have cl oral the day before yesterday, yesterday, today, tomorrow , and after tomorrow , GOODLUCK AND HOPE YOU GUYS WILL GET HIGH MARKS :D

HATE

; CHURCH WAS AWESOME! LOVE E290 :D

So i asked God to tell me whether if i should forget or wait for him. Somehow i have a feeling he wants me to wait. lol, cos i anyhow flipped one page of my sis's 'our journey ;daily walk in the word' book and it says "waiting" hmmmmmm. okay i'm talking nonsense. X:

I really want to hate this person. :( Everytime i go the person's blog my blood is like boiling and and heart is breaking -.- so stupid lor, i never had such a strong urge to hate someone. But i just can't do it! I think love her too much. IT ISN'T RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shouldn't be. I should just cut off all connection with her and heed my daddy's advice. BUT I JUST COULDN'T DO IT! argh! Something is seriously wrong with me. D: Firstly i cannot forget him,even tho its been 1year and 8 months. Secondly, i just kept letting my 'friend' take advantage of me like nobody's business. OK, whatever, sry . i just needed to get this out of my heart /: i don't feel so bad now, and i don't wna hate her now :) <3 God.

"It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness."
~Deb Caletti, Honey, Baby, Sweetheart

HAHA. i spent away my friday night, saturday /: now its 8 plus and i haven't done anything related to school. hmph, 4tests 2projs next week.

loved

Yesterday was my birthday! Haha. It was kind of the best birthday i've ever had. Dno why, but i smiled alot :D I started receiving presents one month before my birthday, and still receiving today. I'm so touched by you all you know! So many birthday wishes :) especially khairul, who apparantly decided to wish me every few minutes ._. lol, and from people whom i've never speak to for more than 1minute.

Anyway, special thanks E290!, xiaoshi kimberley, munping , joni carissa rebecca, julian , matthew and last but the most thanks to my dearest SISTER! for all the presents :) I'm sorry i couldn't name all of you here. of else i'll be naming more 1/2 the class and tons of others X.X But seriously THANKS AGAIN! :D

argh, wanted to post pictures ,but blogger wouldn't allow /: ohwell...

;the best present i received is from God! He gave me all of you :)

Wrong again
Father, I hate to tell you this
You taught me how to hit the mark
And once again I missed

Touch the fire
You always said that I'd get burned
Why is it so hard
To remember all the lessons I have learned

[Chorus]
How can you look at me that way
When I have failed so many times
Showing me love, you tell the world
This child is mine
How can you walk that extra mile
I see forgiveness in your smile
So sure you'd reject me
Wrong again

Once again
Lord, I have wandered from your path
Thought I knew a better way
Coming short of what you've asked
Standing here
I don't deserve a second chance
And I can't conceal
The shame I feel
It's more than I can stand

[Chorus]
How can you look at me that way
When I have failed so many times
Showing me love, you tell the world
This child is mine
How can you walk that extra mile
I see forgiveness in your smile
So sure you'd desert me
Wrong again

When I look into your face
And see the power of your grace
I find it so hard to believe
Forgiveness that your showing me
I see the answer in your eyes
Love and mercy realized
And finally your truth has set me free

[Chorus]
How can you look at me that way
When I have failed so many times
Showing me love, you tell the world
This child is mine
How can you walk that extra mile
I see forgiveness in your smile

I thought you would scold me
Instead you just hold me
Thought you would judge me
Instead you just love me
So sure you'd reject me
Wrong again


<3333333 God !

WILLING

To think about all the sad things that happen all around me, think about how people wouldn't appreciate all that i've done for them,who take me for granted,used me as a substitute, only looking for me when they needed something. Its very hurting, but i couldn't bring myself to tell them to stop doing that to me. How much sometimes i wanted to murder those who break hearts, i wonder how anyone would want to forgive them. But someone did, God would. You could break a thousand hearts and kill hundreds of people, he would still be willing to give you all he had , he will still be willing to be your substitute, he will still be willing to get hurt and take the blame away from us. He will still be willing to be there for you when no one else would, he will still be willing to love us.

Compared to what he's done for us, i feel that what i'm willing is just peanuts.

Ephesians 4:32 (New International Version)
32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

SHOPPING!

;YAY! thank God for today =)

I spent like umm, $60 ( including jeremy's late bday present ) haha. Its weird shopping with a guy , that is more picky than me. lol. Not counting the fact that he made me scream in the middle of a quiet bookshop -.- , almost like screaming in a library loh. so embarrassing! HAHA.

Breaking news

1) My bobdog lost his leg
2) Father first time don't let sis go out.
3) I slept in the afternoon ( yay! finally:D )

1) Show you poor bobdog's picture next time. So i threw him down the rubbish chute. :/ evil huh! :P

2) D: Daddy i going out to study.
DAD: Go where study?
D: go walk walk maybe mcdonald.
DAD: No . later u go jungle later meet tiger then u know.
D: mcdonald where got tiger?

3) jianbao amaths(#!@#!~) chem /: to do nowwwwwwwww.


I want to change blogskin. Haven't been able to find time or a nice skin :S I know this one is too bright and it hurts your eye but......its pink :(

anyway! just rmb something! :D
you know during pahang theres this solowalk thingy ( alone in the middle of the forest at night) we had to walk back. & all i can see is the stars and sometimes too late random flash lights, i couldn't even see the route i was walking on ,only can feel it. oh and we have no phone no flashlights no water -.- .I know i always have fear sleeping alone in a dark room, so I prayed before i started walking and surprisingly i wasn't afraid! in fact i felt very safe =) so i made my way through and hit someone on his head. ( the person wanted to scare me -.- haha, but he failed anyway! ) & you know what! God gave me two friends to walk back 1/2 of the way through! I think i would've drop into some kinda drain if its not for God :) seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, how wonderful is he! :D

I went to jeremy's cg meeting yesterday . Its amazinggggggggggggg ! haha. everyone should go.

last day of holiday

D: it passed so fast right? /:

Anyway, i still have homework yet to be done but..haha, no mood to do. I went to church today with xiaoshi! YAY! she's becoming christian! =)

Its funny how i can see through your lies and still smile to you. How i wish i could ask you stop lying to me. But I guess i know maybe you'll never change even if God asked you to.

honey's quiz. hmm.

1) Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
-somewhere else loh ?
2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning ?
- great
3) Who was the last person you talked with ?
- sis
4) Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
- abit
5) Would you donate blood ?
- yeah
6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ?
- yeah. used to.
7) Do you want someone dead ?
- no
8) What does the last message says ?
- see you soon
9) What are you thinking right now ?
- i'm thinking what i'm thinking now.
10) Do you wish someone with you right now ?
- no
11) What time you went to bed last night ?
- 1 am.
13) Is someone in your mind ?
- yeah
14) Who was the last person you texted ?
- Aiin :)
15) 10 people tagged to do quiz.
- anyone

lol /: sry honey, i still got 4jianbao 1book review lit and history need to do. & i can't think of anyone to tag.
X:

FEATURING....

KITTIES ! They are so cute ! ( sorry if you don't like cats )

hehe! (:

Today i went to Jeremy's church! It was good! Except that he's always like, so sad. I suspect he is lovesick! HAHAHAHAHAHA . Well, at least his friends are nice and fun :D Anyway, people are starting on their holiday homework already and i've not. 10jianbao 1bookreview you think i can finish in one day? /: i want to try. Anything is possible with God :D

[ God always has a positive answer - ]
-You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
-You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
-You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34 )
-You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
-You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
-You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things through Christ (Philippians 4:13)
-You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
-You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )
-You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
-You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
-You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
-You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on me (I Peter 5:7)
-You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
-You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

; happy father's day !

GSS

;mangosale!

How i hope the gss last forever! But then it wouldn't be gss anymore, probably ess ( everyday singapore sale) okay. nevermind , i know i'm lame. I went to mango yesterday. But i didn't buy anything :( I wanted to buy the bag there but i already bought one elsewhere D:

i missed my friends. The thing is , you never really know when you will stop hanging out with those whom you promise you will stay with forever.

He wasn't what I'd thought he was;
maybe he never had been.
But I wasn't what I thought I was, either.

I love quotes! I've been collecting them since forever :) now i have 104 pages of quotes . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Its my hobby i guess. Something i love besides shopping & reading.

need apple , strawberry ,banana !

;1 year ago on this day my ahma passed away. :(

Its been a few days since i last blogged /: heh, i read 6 books ! None of it is chinese and i'm wondering how am i going to do my chinese book review. Maybe i can write the review 三只小猪 ! :D




Alot of people enjoy horror movies /: but i don't . I remember the first time i watched a horror movie.My sis tricked me into watching it ! She told me its not horror but comedy or smth, i almost ran out of the cinema. I watched the same movie a few months ago & it still scares me. Its like so super not scary but i still scream. So a few nights ago i watch hellboy on channel 5 and screamed alot , my dad nearly slapped me for screaming so many times. haha. ok , maybe horror movies aren't that bad. just that i only watch 1/4 of the movie because 3/4 of the time i was hiding behind the popcorn or my jacket. I know its so embarrassing!


Did you ever have a certain kind of feeling when you listen to songs you used to love years ago? haha /:

Gillian's Birthday

Its my sis birthday today & she thinks she's queen @.@ She expects everyone to follow her orders . lol -.-

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

;You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like
and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work.
Someone would leave. Someone always leaves and then we have to say good-bye.
I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.
- Snoopy

i gues i'm back to blogging short posts. /:

Attempting to make this my longest post ever

okay, before i start , lets take 10 seconds to look at this photo.

found this picture somewhere but forgot where. so sweet right?haha. if only guys could be that nice. But so sad none of them exist.

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i saw people everywhere with long posts and realised mine are always so short , so i decided to try and post a long one this time.
CAUTION : WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO READ WILL BE VERY VERY BORING.

Yesterday, went out with honey , jeremy and zj . Ate pastamania( because we had to wait for somebody and i donno who ) and then watched Night at the museum 2 . Its nice and super funny! Haha :) & its super embarrassing because i screamed when its not scary at all. I wanted to watch The Blood or whatever but its m18 :( At least if i screamed while watching that show it wouldn't be so bad. heh. Anyway, i was supposed to go home after the movie to watch another movie . But two people spoiled my mood and made me so angry i promised myself never to speak to them again. Evil people. So i went home and didn't want to go out anymore. ):

Today, i woke up at 9.30 and started to do some maths because i'm meeting xiaoshi in the afternoon and its bad to go unprepared. haha . otherwise i would not be bothered to do. So i got my jiejie to help me solve some hard and irritating questions. After that i went to library to return books then walked back to interchange to meet xiaoshi. Then we walked to tampines mall to buy her shirt then we walked back to library . But there was no space for us to study so we walked back to kfc there. Then , i almost died . haha , because i did maths :( So.... after that we walked back to tampines mall again to buy her pen then spent some time at thefaceshop. I reached home around 6 pm and went out again at 6.30pm. Met nicole, walked to market D: and walked back again. ( okay, seriously i'm tired already ! i don't understand how other people can blog looooooooooooooong posts . I think they're amazing and i'm hopeless T.T )

Just and Now , i watched Ben10 ( i think he's cute haha) and started on this amazingly long and boring post. Ohnoo, i have nothing to blog about anymore. oh ! MAYBE i can blog about tmr too. lol -.- ( can see i'm very desperate to find something to blog about )

Tomorrow , i will wake up at 7 am and go to school for Amaths remedial. Then i will try my best to stay alive there. After that i'm going to go home and sleep. Then i will go and visit my aunt . After that i will go home and i would watch tv and play petsociety. THENNNNNNNN. i will attempt suicide by doing maths !

Am i done now ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :/

The day after tomorrow , i will wake up at 7 am again and go to school again for Amaths remedial. Then i will try my best not to die while i do the mock test that MrChoy would be giving us. After that i will try my best not to cry when he go through the paper. Haha , after that i will go home and jump around the house because there will be no more remedial for this holiday ! But then i will stop jumping and mope around once i realised i have tons of MATHS homework that needs to be none and 10 jianbaos to do.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA :) and i am still upset about what happened yesterday.

Okay thats it i can't take it anymore. ONE last thing : you can see i have many near death experiences when i do maths :)

AMATHS REMEDIAL TODAY

I wanted to go physics remedial......But i had to go for amaths. T.T
I wanted to go home.......But i had to go to the hospital.
I wanted to play petsociety.......But its on maintenance.
I wanted to go shopping.......But i've got no money.
I wanted to go and water the plants.....But its already dark. Poor plants, it didn't receive much water today. I wonder if they could still photosynthesize.

HAHA. I wanted to ... But nevermind ;D

So anyway. i went to the hospital just now. -.- so crowed at the entrance ( they made everyone take a mask O: ) but inside nobody one...No need to queue to see the doctor at all. *i remember waiting one and a half hour last time* Haha. Then watched while my aunt had an injection. Its so frightening. It POKED through her skin.I nearly screamed. It was so bad i had to look away. ( okay, maybe not that bad BUT the nurse took four tubes of bloooooooooood!!!!! )

; when i see you smile .

The way you smile could outdo a million beautiful sunsets.

smelly

Have anyone realised nowadays more and more people are dying ): And the weather is getting more and more warm .................

I had a terrible headache last night. I think its because of the smoke . It was 11pm and they are still burning dono what thing. so scary T.T & now 11 am still got the smoke smell. & in addition to the misery, there's some construction work going on a few floors above! -.-

nevermind, maybe i should ignore the smell and noise and contribute to global warming by switching on the air-con. SEEEEEEEEE, i am evil :0

Luke 6:37 (New International Version)
Judging Others
37"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

i spent all my bobdog money

Yesterday was Xiaoshi's birthday ! We went Orchard to shop. Then i spent 60 Dollars only. I know its alot but very little . After that i went to my aunt's house to sleep. I think i slept alone in a kingsized bed with six pillows and two blankets . haha. and tons of candles beside. At first i thought it'll be scary because i'd be sleeping in a kingsized bed with six pillows and two blankets, but it turned out pretty comfy :)

I went to service alone today !!!!!

YAY JUNE HOLIDAY !

:) finally ! had been waiting for today for 5months . Haha. Today gave Xiaoshi her birthday present ! heehee. SO i will be going back to school next week anyway. amaths & sudoku. T.T i can't even complete one box you know !!!!! & sudoku makes me kuku .

to honey : smilesmilesmilesmilelaughlaughlaughlaughcheerup !

I think this song vcoooooooooooooool. haha.

:/ When I stand before God at the end of my life, I hope that I don't have a single bit of talent left and I could say, "I used everything You gave me."

one more day one more day

WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS TAKE ME FOR GRANTED . @~$#!@#@!$ the nicer you are you someone the lesser it take for you to break the friendship. just a simple little mistake they'd be upset with you . but if you aren't that nice to them,they somehow will 'understand' if you do something not up to their standards. why is this even fair.

I AM GOING TO BE VERY EVIL FROM NOW ON . tsk.

this does not apply/refer to anyone. Just a random discovery i realised over the years.

i feel like screaming

Like i said , i feel like screaming , but i can't . My throat hurts like hell. I'm super tired.My sister's driving me nuts & i'm sad. I regret things very often. I make stupid mistakes that are really stupid.

i like dory :)

i think i'm like dory , i forget things very often , but have great friends !

How many times can you revisit a memory?
i hope this will be the last.

i'm doing math now

YES , again -.- ! i just realised how careless i've been. ( again) HAHAHA . i copy the question wrongly like for 4 questions ._. ,forgotten to write the negative sign for like 5 questions never read instructions for 2 questions, calculate the values wrongly for 2 questions ! ... stupid #@$#@~# me. I'm sure there are still tons of careless mistakes i've yet to find out.

I've a terrible sore throat ): i think its because i drank too much water. Yes , TOO much T.T
I think i have to do physics too. -.- ... i think i left physics in school ! ARGH ! tmr 's a wednesday & supposedly i can sleeep until 7 but i think i have to reach school by 7 to complete my homework ! Any kind souls out there willing to help me ? Cmon, i need a friendddddddddddddddddddddddd.


Now you decide to push me away?
Don't bother; I'll go.
You just lost me forever.

Post-exam

Its not like i'm complaining or anything, but i felt like i wasted 3hours in school today. Although its a thousand times more entertaining than maths, But cmon, drawing,colouring and designing some Tofu ? T.T i almost wanted to colour the whole page black and say i'm finished /:

Anyway, just to let you know, i was desperately trying to complete my maths corrections a few mins ago but i gave up :P Partly because i'm sad and doing maths made me even more sad so.......i stop doing ! I wanted to talk to somebody/ anybody & ask them to help me BUT , then, there's nobody so..... haha.

I'm such a evil person. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. but then , i thought for awhile and realised you are as bad as me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Sometimes, best is just not enough. People are expecting so much, so much....out of...NOTHING.

Ps. let me tell you a secret. Your friends, 90% of them are using you. Sometimes, even your bestfriend (:
Shhhhh.Don't tell anyone else.

CRAPCRAPCRAP

:D

Today received back the rest of the results. & i got one A one B one D and five Cs. AWWWWWW D: both maths also C . sian. Both tchers keep hinting at they're very disappointed in me because i did below expectations. They make me feel so .... -.- ! I did study for it. I did tried my best. But i just don't like MATHS ! ): & i cannot imagine myself doing maths during june holiday. Its even more depressing than not having holidays.

NEVERMIND !

i want to go play with my meowmeow already.

RESULTS

Firstly ....... KRIS ALLEN WON :D

Secondly .. i failed my chem .

SO . My day was like,

First period, chinese i looked like this --->

Next was emath& i became like that --->
Then english -------------------------- -->
AFTER RECESS, Physics --------------->
then... CHEMISTRY--------------------->





THEN i went home . My father asked about my results and i thought i was dead. Then he said not bad . i was like . haha X:


i hope i pass my amaths anyway. :(

你小心翼翼 牵我手
其实是担忧 藏不住我
自尊也投降 活在她之下 我 好傻

你字字句句说 你不爱她
那又是什么 让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅 因为你留下 我 好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在 让我更寂寞
你寸步不离 像天使的她
挥霍我的爱 从不放心上
我有一丝无奈 也有一些明白 该 放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说 假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

啊~~ 谁说我不在意空等候
原来 你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受 你没想像中爱我

MYEs are over :)

YIPEE !

(:(: anyway, i totally screwed physics as well.

So i brought my meimei to school yesterday, and it almost killed me ! TT First she said i was too childish for her , then she claimed that i'm her pig ( she's supposed to be MY pig ! )
G: 我有一只猪很像你 leh.
ME: 哪一只?
G: 你啦!
ME: WHAT?!! 我?!!
G: 当然啦!不是我的猪 then 是我的狗 meh?
after that she said she bought a penknife to kill me.

DECIDED NOT TO CHANGE :)

Blogger is much much much much better than Wordpress. Wordpress is so complicated , just like maths ! O:

I'm going to meet XIAOSHI soon. HAHA.
but i'm still depressed about maths -.- !

OOPS I'M DOOOOOOOOOMED

Before everything went wrong, we went to ecp for picnic :D

i know, my meimei looks so cool right ! HAHA (:

This is wonderwoman :)

This is pig :)

Today i killed myself.
1) By not sleeping enough
2) By forgetting to bring my bestfriend with me for chemistry !
3) By not reading the questions carefully and stubbornly don't want to learn sets.

So i was unable to calculate any values for chem , which is very depressing. I realised my bestfriend's importance ! ): i think i'll fail emaths ! zzz, i bet its because 70 % careless , 30 % SETS!$!@#~! I don't know why i'm so screwed today. So now i'm so scared i'll make the same mistake for physics and emathsp1 on monday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUNPING!

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you , happy birthday to honey , happy birthday to you!


I'm sorry i didn't wish you on the first minute of your birthday , but that doesn't mean i don't remember ! (: Thanks for being such a great friend! You're 15 now. (: I hope you'll be happy always yah! Although sometimes i couldn't be there for you ( and i'm very sorry bout that ) but i'll always love you. You're the GREATEST BESTEST SWEETEST LOVELIEST HONEY in the world .SOOOOOO,i hope you had a great birthday ! I love you ! :D

I wonder why people lie. They do it so easily. If i lied i would feel bad the whole day , i wonder if that applies to those who lied to me too.

Should i permanently change to wordpress ? heheheeee.

If you can't find me here, maybe i'm there .

(changed the link, i think the previous url weird weird one. )

slack

I wish i could press fast forward, just to see if you're worth the wait.

I didn't do anything much this weekend. Not even homework. DAD don't allow my family to go church !!! & the myes are coming. 11more days actually . I still could not differentiate between discursive and argumentative ): bleh :p i need something interesting in my life. I'm getting bored.

my sis likes to spray the house with perfume. She bought it for 2.90. & smells like those high class toilet.

A bug just flew and landed on my bestfriend(mathnotebook) ! O: i'm gna kill it ! How dare it touch my bestfriend D:

10seconds ltr- its under my contactlens case. hehehe, its never coming out.
muaahhahahhha.

GOODNEWS!
my piggy BOBDOG bank is getting heavier ! :DDDDDDDDD

a+b-c x d =abcd :p

Ever stared at a math question for one hour and still don't know how to solve ? well, happened to me plenty of times. & how do you expect me to be optimistic about it ?! I can't help but spend more than 2hours on math almost everyday ! Its driving me nuts and i'm venting it on people D: ! & the worst thing is tomorrow i've a math test -.- ! & yes , i spent one hour staring. again. I CAN'T DO LINES ! math is the most horrible problem i've encountered in my 14 years .

horrible note to self :
i have three best friends.
- maths textbook
- maths notebook
- calculator.

& HAPPY IFD ! :D
thanks honey for the card :)

Think what a better world it would be,
if we all, the whole world, had cookies and milk about three o'clock every afternoon
and then lay down on our blankets for a nap.

GOOD FRIDAY

Yesterday was sports day :D no lessons but woke up around the same time and had my AMATHS test ! O: the test was okay.. at least i HOPE its okay. X: reached bedok stadium around 12 . It was too early so munping, daesia and me went seveneleven. Walked a bighugeenormoushumongous round before reaching . hehe.
( REALLY SORRY IF I PESTERED YOU GUYS TO BUY THEM ! D: )

You all know what day is it today ! :)
Its the day we remember Jesus died for us.
&
Nabilah's birthday ! happybirthdayalien . love you vmuchmuch.

different

My house look so empty now ): i somehow kind of miss my messy house . 'was late for school today -.- ! i took my own sweet time to walk to the bus stop and the bus came a minute early so i missed it .Sigh , sosuay loh T.T Nevermind i will be super duper early tomorrow :D Math's okay , only that i would fail my test with flying colours and i can't be bothered anymore ( after spending one hour on HALF a question ) .

unfortunately , after 16 months, i still miss you.
I like you hair . hehehehehehehehe.

Typical Wednesday

Great news everyone! my meimei reads twilight ! -.- i'm sure all the pages will come out after she finish reading. HAHA . & so my dad wants to sell the house ! O: Maybe i'll be sleeping on the streets a few months later. But then my house so messy , i wonder who would buy it ! HAHA.

Aiyah , i forget what i want to post already ! everytime like that one ! D:

Earth hour thingy

OK, FIRSTLY I WANT TO ADMIT I AM S-L-O-W. ( i think everyone knows that , so , nevermind. XD) i didn't know there's an earth hour thingy. My sis said there were ads everywhere. @.@ but i didn't even see one D: Its like everyone knows except me ! So , obviously i didn't take part in it. But i still love earth kkkkkk . more than you :P so yeah , i hope there's still next year !

somehow this picture reminds me of netto ! lol :)

March is going to be over already . D: one month later would be EL P1 ! -.- i think i've forgotten how to write a narrative essay already. All i know now is argumentative/discursive (& no matter how many times people tell me its different, i still feel its the same) which i'm exceptionally bad at.

i want to lose my ez-link card and get a replacement with a nicer photo. HAHAHAHA.

& btw,
i found someone more kuku than me ! :D finally..

there's so much i wna say

D: or :D

Can you believe it ?? i actually found the interest to read again ! i love sad stories with happy endings. They just make me feel , sad . I realised i've forgotten to bring home my lit notes to study .Ok , things to do : SS !!!!!!!! , Two lit test (oc +tkmb), Chinese Tx , Chem test , Physics Ws and Eng essay , MATHS ;D jy me ! i serious have no time to please anyone. & Its funny how some people are never in fault for anything they do , i just thought everyone makes mistakes.

& i totally cannot stand impatient people who scold their way to get the things they want ! -.- so lah ! they wait one minute they scold already . ( so sad for the person selling D: ) & what about the people who waited longer ?! %$#@%#$@(^#! somemore cut queue . Are people getting selfish lately ?

People are always talking about how hard it is to find a good man,
but nowadays it's hard to even find a good person.
It's so hard to just even find a person to talk to,
someone who will just listen and not judge,
someone who will just take you as you are.

BRITAIN

i spent 4 hours yesterday + 4 hours today doing my SS project on healthcare in Britain.
-.- i think i'm going to turn British, if i am going to spend another hour tomorrow .

yes , i know i'm crazy for spending 8 hours doing it! ... i just hope its enough ):
ok, then i spent nearly an hour doing 2 maths questions and now i have to 'somehow' find time to do history .

ARGH !!!!!!!!!! D: I've got no time !!!!!! HBQERCTI )$!@ C@)RFQ

i want to buy time.

Everyone's changing . It's time for me to change too.

Haha. sometimes i feel like i'm talking to the wall. they don't talk back , just like you, they don't reply. But wever . I should talk louder and maybe it would echo back.

So PE today . No more pilates(?) so we had to run 3rounds -.- ! i can't run D: * remembers the last alot of times i ran till my face turned white* But i still ran tho , with xiaoshi :) then standing board jump , it felt 'hard' because the ground didn't feel soft like last time. Didn't have the black colour thingy instead we had measuring tape(?) . Maths made me feel stupid. i went to draw the thingy when it was already given below. i only realised it after like 237898196 minutes. We finally did get to touch the apparatus(?) at chem lab today. I like BEBE ! but PIPE & BURE not bad too.. (: Chinese tingxie went well because teacher allowed us to 'open book' HAHAHAHA :/

After school went home with netto. she don't want my money :( haha.

I can't believe i just typed what happened today out. i rarely do that. because i know nobody likes to read my boring life >< .

First day of term 2

It went pretty well i guess. Just 10 more weeks to go! (: Yay , no cca tomorrow . i can go shopping; out with friends ; be happy . do my homework. Weeeeeeeelll. Nobody is free anyway.

What must one do to be considered as a good friend? What's good? What's friend? If i have not been a good friend , how good are you? Because i tried to be there for you , when you have never needed me to be there. Have you done the same ? maybe .

Sometimes we expect more from others because we know we'll do so much more for them.

homeworkhomework

ohnoooooo. Its already Saturday night ! D: i doubt i'll finish my homework on time. *Sigh*

so i went to csc alone -.- just now . nearly couldn't find :P Haha. My laogong gave me ring ! lol, so sweet luh. ♥ . I like it , and its pink !I received free balloons from them :) thanks xueer and daniel. (: TEC won the consolation prize :) very good already ! like got 8 out of 40 plus schools get something leh. Heehe. After that Xinyun accompanied me to bedok to eat ! Aw so nice of her :D

back from camp (:

I don't know why but i like this picture. Haha.

I'm back from enterprise camp !! :D Guess what ? Netto's my laogong ! lol. (: Me and her group combined cause many people didn't turn up for e camp. I guess the most memorable part of the camp was the nightwalk. Somebody threw a lightstick on my head. Don't know who -.-
It was hard to sleep at night even worse than in Pahang O: But at least there are clean water and no big scary insects.

Somehow i feel that people are lying to me , those who are the closest to me. I really don't want to know you are just like the others.

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waitwait, i got somemore to add.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA:D so funny why are you so funny. You're so funny its actually predictable. You're so predictably flirtatious .
Everything i want to slap someone , somebody else hit me instead :P then i'll forget i actually wanted to do it to you.

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want.

!@@$#!@#$%$#%^&^%*%@#%$

D: What hurts the most when you're being lied to ? Knowing that you ain't worth the truth. Nevermind.I stop believing in you 6months ago.

I brought linnette to school this afternoon . It was raining . I was drenched and so was lin. However we still walked happily to school . But suddenly she slipped . After that i cooked for aunt and then went to fetch Gillian home. She used the umbrella to poke me . So i poked her back . Then she called me ignorantpoop. So i called her nincompoop . So after i reached home, i bathed and went out to meet honey . After that i went to fetch Gillian and Linnette home. again... Gillian pushed me and i flew . After a long walk , we finally reached home But they threw my key in and locked me outside the house . But i called my parents and my parents scolded them .

honey, cheer up! ily .

happybirthday.