Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.

2009-08-02T19:39:00.000+08:00

http://inlovewithrainbows.wordpress.com/

2009-07-31T14:45:00.001+08:00

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo blogger is screwed again :(
it cheated my feelings :(

YAY!

2009-07-29T00:36:00.001+08:00

YAYAYAYAYAY! blogger's back to normal :)

GREAT :D

2009-07-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today, i had a GREAT day! How about you? haha. I was so glad i brought Congrun to church and he became happier ( or so he claims ) :D YAY! Thank God!

Blogger is partially back to normal, i think. At least the small box is back to the big box! haha. Isn't that great? I was actually going to try on livejournal if things here didn't get better. Haha :) Wordpress is actually good, but it can't put the dailybibleverse thing! lol XP livejournal can leh! :D :D

Next week i'd have 5 tests T.T but nevermind. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME! :D haha. So yeah, God is Great!

To honey: HAHA. M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E! HAHA. the show like dora the explorer like that haha XP

okay, gotta go off and do hw :D bye!
HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD!

Blogger doesn't like me lol

2009-07-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

HI! * waves *

(: xiaoshi told me its possible to blog with this small box over here. haha. Since when blogger decided to be 'cute' on me?! haha. Its sad i can't post pictures or anything. :( seems like theres nothing except this small box.

YAY! i love my new phone( i hope i will love it a.l.a.i.l) figure that out yourself. alail is not its name :)

So my parents decided to buy more tv channels. and now i've got boomberang(?) i dno channel 36 :) I WAS JUMPING AROUND THE WHOLE HOUSE BECAUSE NOW I CAN WATCH POPEYE!! yesyes, i am so childish, i still love popeye and adore scoobydoo. mickeymouse's last century.

How i wish people would stop having such high expectations of me. its not everyday i can score a 19/20 ok! lol :)

pink

2009-07-21T00:19:00.002+08:00

; Unfortunately i'm a little obsessed with pink
Got a pink phone pink bag pink house x100000000 more pink stuff. Lol.

I am deciding whether to change colour to like.

-Blue?
cannot i like before

-Yellow
abit weird

-Green
i dont like durians

-Red
too hot for me

-Black
later julian say i emo

soooooooo. maybe white brown or silver. ok, i am so bored i'm posting about colours, X.X

Should i change phone number?

from 9******* to 9******* ? ( look the same right ! lol)

choice

2009-07-20T23:47:00.004+08:00

; millions of people are crying now. Its kind of 'trend' nowadays you know. I mean , not crying trend but people hurting other people is kinda the 'in' thing now. Either the world's getter meaner and people are getting more and more evil or that people are getting more and more oversensitive. I ADMIT I AM VERY SENSITIVE. but some people are really insensitive to the feelings of others.

1 Corinthians 6:7 (New King James Version)
7 Now therefore, it is already an utter failure for you that you go to law against one another. Why do you not rather accept wrong? Why do you not rather let yourselves be cheated?

yeah, why don't we let ourselves be cheated? i let others cheat me a gazillion times. ok, im not so great so please note i'm exaggerating. XP But yeah, people lie & i know but i kept quiet. People hurt my feelings , i chose not to tell them. Whats the use anyway, since at the end of the day, it will all be ok?Have you realised? no matter how hurt you are, time indeed heals. You might never forget, but after awhile it won't hurt anymore.After awhile, you'll stop crying. After awhile you will find yourself smiling again. Close friends run away. They stop caring. Doesn't mean WE have to follow suit. Close friends betrayed you , yet you can still choose to trust them again. Sometimes we just have to let ourselves be at the disadvantage and trust God to do the healing.

Then again, misunderstandings are everywhere. Caused by people 'jumping' into conclusions. like human nature you know. haha.

Philippians 2:4 (New International Version)
4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

This is my desperate attempt to make the world a better place.lol. but seriously. i am serious.take a look around the world and tell me i'm wrong. haha. i am always wrong, but always right ^^

Swimming

2009-07-17T23:51:00.005+08:00

; 1 Corinthians 16:13 (New International Version)
13Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.

Haha. I don't know why i can't stop laughing whenever i'm in water. lol. Even kimberley's brother thinks i'm crazy! O: hahahaha.

Chem test was pretty hard. I think i'm gna fail. But its okay:) i can do better next time! :D I CAN I CAN I CAN DO IT, but only with God.

): didn't change phone today. My sis bought w980. Mummy says she'll buy for me tmr :) *prays hard*

I feel rich in pet society. lol. Spent like 2,000 coins today :D & got a wallpaper -.- haha.

Friends come friends go. Boyfriends come boyfriends go. Bestfriends come and bestfriends go. I come to realize that most people only stay for a period of time.Then they get bored of you and throw you away, and run away with somebody else. I still seem to be where we started, but friends , where are you all now?/: ( NOT BEING EMO OR NEGATIVE HERE!I AM PERFECTLY HAPPY. I've still got great friends that will prove my theory wrong :D )

;OHOH.. thanks Jeremy Janice Jiahui for bday presents :)

Why can't i think of a title for this post?

2009-07-16T23:31:00.003+08:00

; love my meowmeow ! you guys can go and visit her. She vlonely nowadays :( argh , all those tests and projects X.X only now then got time :( haha, but. BETTER than nothing!

Today's history presentation was rather awkward @.@ lol. AHHHHHHHHH. i always screw up presentations, so yeah. not surprising. XD

After school went shopping with xiaoshi and kimberley! I didn't buy anything. I'm trying to save up for a new phone! :D maybe changing tmr. haha. yay!

ohyeahhhhhhhhhh, I am so glad God never fails to answer my prayers! haha. I was praying that my group won't have to do ss presentation today and it came true ^^ lol. && i was almost late for school yesterday. Nearly had a panic attack ( ok maybe i'm overeacting and partially exaggerating. XP ) In normal curcumstances, i would be late. Which i think , would the the third time late this year? The last thing i want is the school calling my mum to complain ): haha, so i asked God to let me reach school on time :))))))))))))

Busy week

2009-07-14T21:46:00.002+08:00

; sleeeping late everyday :(

I think i'm going to have panda eyes soon ! haha. I AM SO GLAD PHYSICS TEST IS POSTPONED! I was like praying desperately the past few days! /: too busy to study for physics which already :) so THANKGOD! So i am going to start on SS project soon. and the time now is 9.55 pm. ><

hehehehehehehe. although i am so tired -.- i am glad i'm able to stay 'awake' during lessons. A little thanks to Julian, haha , but seriously. DO I LOOK SAD MOST OF THE TIME? He claims i'm emo :( Which is totally the opposite /: HAHA :D

All those who have cl oral the day before yesterday, yesterday, today, tomorrow , and after tomorrow , GOODLUCK AND HOPE YOU GUYS WILL GET HIGH MARKS :D

HATE

2009-07-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

; CHURCH WAS AWESOME! LOVE E290 :D

So i asked God to tell me whether if i should forget or wait for him. Somehow i have a feeling he wants me to wait. lol, cos i anyhow flipped one page of my sis's 'our journey ;daily walk in the word' book and it says "waiting" hmmmmmm. okay i'm talking nonsense. X:

I really want to hate this person. :( Everytime i go the person's blog my blood is like boiling and and heart is breaking -.- so stupid lor, i never had such a strong urge to hate someone. But i just can't do it! I think love her too much. IT ISN'T RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shouldn't be. I should just cut off all connection with her and heed my daddy's advice. BUT I JUST COULDN'T DO IT! argh! Something is seriously wrong with me. D: Firstly i cannot forget him,even tho its been 1year and 8 months. Secondly, i just kept letting my 'friend' take advantage of me like nobody's business. OK, whatever, sry . i just needed to get this out of my heart /: i don't feel so bad now, and i don't wna hate her now :) <3 God.

"It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness."
~Deb Caletti, Honey, Baby, Sweetheart

HAHA. i spent away my friday night, saturday /: now its 8 plus and i haven't done anything related to school. hmph, 4tests 2projs next week.

loved

2009-07-10T17:01:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my birthday! Haha. It was kind of the best birthday i've ever had. Dno why, but i smiled alot :D I started receiving presents one month before my birthday, and still receiving today. I'm so touched by you all you know! So many birthday wishes :) especially khairul, who apparantly decided to wish me every few minutes ._. lol, and from people whom i've never speak to for more than 1minute.

Anyway, special thanks E290!, xiaoshi kimberley, munping , joni carissa rebecca, julian , matthew and last but the most thanks to my dearest SISTER! for all the presents :) I'm sorry i couldn't name all of you here. of else i'll be naming more 1/2 the class and tons of others X.X But seriously THANKS AGAIN! :D

argh, wanted to post pictures ,but blogger wouldn't allow /: ohwell...

;the best present i received is from God! He gave me all of you :)

2009-07-07T20:30:00.005+08:00

Wrong again
Father, I hate to tell you this
You taught me how to hit the mark
And once again I missed

Touch the fire
You always said that I'd get burned
Why is it so hard
To remember all the lessons I have learned

[Chorus]
How can you look at me that way
When I have failed so many times
Showing me love, you tell the world
This child is mine
How can you walk that extra mile
I see forgiveness in your smile
So sure you'd reject me
Wrong again

Once again
Lord, I have wandered from your path
Thought I knew a better way
Coming short of what you've asked
Standing here
I don't deserve a second chance
And I can't conceal
The shame I feel
It's more than I can stand

[Chorus]
How can you look at me that way
When I have failed so many times
Showing me love, you tell the world
This child is mine
How can you walk that extra mile
I see forgiveness in your smile
So sure you'd desert me
Wrong again

When I look into your face
And see the power of your grace
I find it so hard to believe
Forgiveness that your showing me
I see the answer in your eyes
Love and mercy realized
And finally your truth has set me free

[Chorus]
How can you look at me that way
When I have failed so many times
Showing me love, you tell the world
This child is mine
How can you walk that extra mile
I see forgiveness in your smile

I thought you would scold me
Instead you just hold me
Thought you would judge me
Instead you just love me
So sure you'd reject me
Wrong again

<3333333 God !

WILLING

2009-07-05T20:04:00.004+08:00

To think about all the sad things that happen all around me, think about how people wouldn't appreciate all that i've done for them,who take me for granted,used me as a substitute, only looking for me when they needed something. Its very hurting, but i couldn't bring myself to tell them to stop doing that to me. How much sometimes i wanted to murder those who break hearts, i wonder how anyone would want to forgive them. But someone did, God would. You could break a thousand hearts and kill hundreds of people, he would still be willing to give you all he had , he will still be willing to be your substitute, he will still be willing to get hurt and take the blame away from us. He will still be willing to be there for you when no one else would, he will still be willing to love us.

Compared to what he's done for us, i feel that what i'm willing is just peanuts.

Ephesians 4:32 (New International Version)
32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

SHOPPING!

2009-07-04T19:13:00.003+08:00

;YAY! thank God for today =)

I spent like umm, $60 ( including jeremy's late bday present ) haha. Its weird shopping with a guy , that is more picky than me. lol. Not counting the fact that he made me scream in the middle of a quiet bookshop -.- , almost like screaming in a library loh. so embarrassing! HAHA.

Breaking news

2009-07-02T20:04:00.005+08:00

1) My bobdog lost his leg
2) Father first time don't let sis go out.
3) I slept in the afternoon ( yay! finally:D )

1) Show you poor bobdog's picture next time. So i threw him down the rubbish chute. :/ evil huh! :P

2) D: Daddy i going out to study.
DAD: Go where study?
D: go walk walk maybe mcdonald.
DAD: No . later u go jungle later meet tiger then u know.
D: mcdonald where got tiger?

3) jianbao amaths(#!@#!~) chem /: to do nowwwwwwwww.

I want to change blogskin. Haven't been able to find time or a nice skin :S I know this one is too bright and it hurts your eye but......its pink :(

anyway! just rmb something! :D
you know during pahang theres this solowalk thingy ( alone in the middle of the forest at night) we had to walk back. & all i can see is the stars and sometimes too late random flash lights, i couldn't even see the route i was walking on ,only can feel it. oh and we have no phone no flashlights no water -.- .I know i always have fear sleeping alone in a dark room, so I prayed before i started walking and surprisingly i wasn't afraid! in fact i felt very safe =) so i made my way through and hit someone on his head. ( the person wanted to scare me -.- haha, but he failed anyway! ) & you know what! God gave me two friends to walk back 1/2 of the way through! I think i would've drop into some kinda drain if its not for God :) seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, how wonderful is he! :D

I went to jeremy's cg meeting yesterday . Its amazinggggggggggggg ! haha. everyone should go.

last day of holiday

2009-06-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

D: it passed so fast right? /:

Anyway, i still have homework yet to be done but..haha, no mood to do. I went to church today with xiaoshi! YAY! she's becoming christian! =)

Its funny how i can see through your lies and still smile to you. How i wish i could ask you stop lying to me. But I guess i know maybe you'll never change even if God asked you to.

2009-06-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

honey's quiz. hmm.

1) Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
-somewhere else loh ?
2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning ?
- great
3) Who was the last person you talked with ?
- sis
4) Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
- abit
5) Would you donate blood ?
- yeah
6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ?
- yeah. used to.
7) Do you want someone dead ?
- no
8) What does the last message says ?
- see you soon
9) What are you thinking right now ?
- i'm thinking what i'm thinking now.
10) Do you wish someone with you right now ?
- no
11) What time you went to bed last night ?
- 1 am.
13) Is someone in your mind ?
- yeah
14) Who was the last person you texted ?
- Aiin :)
15) 10 people tagged to do quiz.
- anyone

lol /: sry honey, i still got 4jianbao 1book review lit and history need to do. & i can't think of anyone to tag.
X:

FEATURING....

2009-06-21T19:39:00.003+08:00

KITTIES ! They are so cute ! ( sorry if you don't like cats )

hehe! (:

Today i went to Jeremy's church! It was good! Except that he's always like, so sad. I suspect he is lovesick! HAHAHAHAHAHA . Well, at least his friends are nice and fun :D Anyway, people are starting on their holiday homework already and i've not. 10jianbao 1bookreview you think i can finish in one day? /: i want to try. Anything is possible with God :D

[ God always has a positive answer - ]
-You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
-You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
-You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34 )
-You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
-You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
-You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things through Christ (Philippians 4:13)
-You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
-You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )
-You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
-You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
-You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
-You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on me (I Peter 5:7)
-You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
-You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

; happy father's day !

GSS

2009-06-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

;mangosale!

How i hope the gss last forever! But then it wouldn't be gss anymore, probably ess ( everyday singapore sale) okay. nevermind , i know i'm lame. I went to mango yesterday. But i didn't buy anything :( I wanted to buy the bag there but i already bought one elsewhere D:

i missed my friends. The thing is , you never really know when you will stop hanging out with those whom you promise you will stay with forever.

He wasn't what I'd thought he was;
maybe he never had been.
But I wasn't what I thought I was, either.

I love quotes! I've been collecting them since forever :) now i have 104 pages of quotes . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Its my hobby i guess. Something i love besides shopping & reading.

need apple , strawberry ,banana !

2009-06-18T12:05:00.005+08:00

;1 year ago on this day my ahma passed away. :(

Its been a few days since i last blogged /: heh, i read 6 books ! None of it is chinese and i'm wondering how am i going to do my chinese book review. Maybe i can write the review 三只小猪 ! :D

Alot of people enjoy horror movies /: but i don't . I remember the first time i watched a horror movie.My sis tricked me into watching it ! She told me its not horror but comedy or smth, i almost ran out of the cinema. I watched the same movie a few months ago & it still scares me. Its like so super not scary but i still scream. So a few nights ago i watch hellboy on channel 5 and screamed alot , my dad nearly slapped me for screaming so many times. haha. ok , maybe horror movies aren't that bad. just that i only watch 1/4 of the movie because 3/4 of the time i was hiding behind the popcorn or my jacket. I know its so embarrassing!

Did you ever have a certain kind of feeling when you listen to songs you used to love years ago? haha /:

Gillian's Birthday

2009-06-13T21:40:00.003+08:00

Its my sis birthday today & she thinks she's queen @.@ She expects everyone to follow her orders . lol -.-

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

;You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like
and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work.
Someone would leave. Someone always leaves and then we have to say good-bye.
I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.
- Snoopy

i gues i'm back to blogging short posts. /:

Attempting to make this my longest post ever

2009-06-10T20:20:00.004+08:00

okay, before i start , lets take 10 seconds to look at this photo.

found this picture somewhere but forgot where. so sweet right?haha. if only guys could be that nice. But so sad none of them exist.

--------------------------------
i saw people everywhere with long posts and realised mine are always so short , so i decided to try and post a long one this time.
CAUTION : WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO READ WILL BE VERY VERY BORING.

Yesterday, went out with honey , jeremy and zj . Ate pastamania( because we had to wait for somebody and i donno who ) and then watched Night at the museum 2 . Its nice and super funny! Haha :) & its super embarrassing because i screamed when its not scary at all. I wanted to watch The Blood or whatever but its m18 :( At least if i screamed while watching that show it wouldn't be so bad. heh. Anyway, i was supposed to go home after the movie to watch another movie . But two people spoiled my mood and made me so angry i promised myself never to speak to them again. Evil people. So i went home and didn't want to go out anymore. ):

Today, i woke up at 9.30 and started to do some maths because i'm meeting xiaoshi in the afternoon and its bad to go unprepared. haha . otherwise i would not be bothered to do. So i got my jiejie to help me solve some hard and irritating questions. After that i went to library to return books then walked back to interchange to meet xiaoshi. Then we walked to tampines mall to buy her shirt then we walked back to library . But there was no space for us to study so we walked back to kfc there. Then , i almost died . haha , because i did maths :( So.... after that we walked back to tampines mall again to buy her pen then spent some time at thefaceshop. I reached home around 6 pm and went out again at 6.30pm. Met nicole, walked to market D: and walked back again. ( okay, seriously i'm tired already ! i don't understand how other people can blog looooooooooooooong posts . I think they're amazing and i'm hopeless T.T )

Just and Now , i watched Ben10 ( i think he's cute haha) and started on this amazingly long and boring post. Ohnoo, i have nothing to blog about anymore. oh ! MAYBE i can blog about tmr too. lol -.- ( can see i'm very desperate to find something to blog about )

Tomorrow , i will wake up at 7 am and go to school for Amaths remedial. Then i will try my best to stay alive there. After that i'm going to go home and sleep. Then i will go and visit my aunt . After that i will go home and i would watch tv and play petsociety. THENNNNNNNN. i will attempt suicide by doing maths !

Am i done now ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :/

The day after tomorrow , i will wake up at 7 am again and go to school again for Amaths remedial. Then i will try my best not to die while i do the mock test that MrChoy would be giving us. After that i will try my best not to cry when he go through the paper. Haha , after that i will go home and jump around the house because there will be no more remedial for this holiday ! But then i will stop jumping and mope around once i realised i have tons of MATHS homework that needs to be none and 10 jianbaos to do.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA :) and i am still upset about what happened yesterday.

Okay thats it i can't take it anymore. ONE last thing : you can see i have many near death experiences when i do maths :)

AMATHS REMEDIAL TODAY

2009-06-04T19:12:00.004+08:00

I wanted to go physics remedial......But i had to go for amaths. T.T
I wanted to go home.......But i had to go to the hospital.
I wanted to play petsociety.......But its on maintenance.
I wanted to go shopping.......But i've got no money.
I wanted to go and water the plants.....But its already dark. Poor plants, it didn't receive much water today. I wonder if they could still photosynthesize.

HAHA. I wanted to ... But nevermind ;D

So anyway. i went to the hospital just now. -.- so crowed at the entrance ( they made everyone take a mask O: ) but inside nobody one...No need to queue to see the doctor at all. *i remember waiting one and a half hour last time* Haha. Then watched while my aunt had an injection. Its so frightening. It POKED through her skin.I nearly screamed. It was so bad i had to look away. ( okay, maybe not that bad BUT the nurse took four tubes of bloooooooooood!!!!! )

; when i see you smile .

The way you smile could outdo a million beautiful sunsets.

smelly

2009-06-02T11:13:00.005+08:00

Have anyone realised nowadays more and more people are dying ): And the weather is getting more and more warm .................

I had a terrible headache last night. I think its because of the smoke . It was 11pm and they are still burning dono what thing. so scary T.T & now 11 am still got the smoke smell. & in addition to the misery, there's some construction work going on a few floors above! -.-

nevermind, maybe i should ignore the smell and noise and contribute to global warming by switching on the air-con. SEEEEEEEEE, i am evil :0

Luke 6:37 (New International Version)
Judging Others
37"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

i spent all my bobdog money

2009-05-31T16:45:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was Xiaoshi's birthday ! We went Orchard to shop. Then i spent 60 Dollars only. I know its alot but very little . After that i went to my aunt's house to sleep. I think i slept alone in a kingsized bed with six pillows and two blankets . haha. and tons of candles beside. At first i thought it'll be scary because i'd be sleeping in a kingsized bed with six pillows and two blankets, but it turned out pretty comfy :)

I went to service alone today !!!!!

YAY JUNE HOLIDAY !

2009-05-29T20:29:00.003+08:00

:) finally ! had been waiting for today for 5months . Haha. Today gave Xiaoshi her birthday present ! heehee. SO i will be going back to school next week anyway. amaths & sudoku. T.T i can't even complete one box you know !!!!! & sudoku makes me kuku .

to honey : smilesmilesmilesmilelaughlaughlaughlaughcheerup !

I think this song vcoooooooooooooool. haha.

:/ When I stand before God at the end of my life, I hope that I don't have a single bit of talent left and I could say, "I used everything You gave me."

one more day one more day

2009-05-28T19:56:00.002+08:00

WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS TAKE ME FOR GRANTED . @~$#!@#@!$ the nicer you are you someone the lesser it take for you to break the friendship. just a simple little mistake they'd be upset with you . but if you aren't that nice to them,they somehow will 'understand' if you do something not up to their standards. why is this even fair.

I AM GOING TO BE VERY EVIL FROM NOW ON . tsk.

this does not apply/refer to anyone. Just a random discovery i realised over the years.

i feel like screaming

2009-05-27T19:13:00.002+08:00

Like i said , i feel like screaming , but i can't . My throat hurts like hell. I'm super tired.My sister's driving me nuts & i'm sad. I regret things very often. I make stupid mistakes that are really stupid.

i like dory :)

i think i'm like dory , i forget things very often , but have great friends !

How many times can you revisit a memory?
i hope this will be the last.

i'm doing math now

2009-05-26T20:39:00.002+08:00

YES , again -.- ! i just realised how careless i've been. ( again) HAHAHA . i copy the question wrongly like for 4 questions ._. ,forgotten to write the negative sign for like 5 questions never read instructions for 2 questions, calculate the values wrongly for 2 questions ! ... stupid #@$#@~# me. I'm sure there are still tons of careless mistakes i've yet to find out.

I've a terrible sore throat ): i think its because i drank too much water. Yes , TOO much T.T
I think i have to do physics too. -.- ... i think i left physics in school ! ARGH ! tmr 's a wednesday & supposedly i can sleeep until 7 but i think i have to reach school by 7 to complete my homework ! Any kind souls out there willing to help me ? Cmon, i need a friendddddddddddddddddddddddd.

Now you decide to push me away?
Don't bother; I'll go.
You just lost me forever.

Post-exam

2009-05-25T22:40:00.002+08:00

Its not like i'm complaining or anything, but i felt like i wasted 3hours in school today. Although its a thousand times more entertaining than maths, But cmon, drawing,colouring and designing some Tofu ? T.T i almost wanted to colour the whole page black and say i'm finished /:

Anyway, just to let you know, i was desperately trying to complete my maths corrections a few mins ago but i gave up :P Partly because i'm sad and doing maths made me even more sad so.......i stop doing ! I wanted to talk to somebody/ anybody & ask them to help me BUT , then, there's nobody so..... haha.

I'm such a evil person. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. but then , i thought for awhile and realised you are as bad as me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Sometimes, best is just not enough. People are expecting so much, so much....out of...NOTHING.

Ps. let me tell you a secret. Your friends, 90% of them are using you. Sometimes, even your bestfriend (:
Shhhhh.Don't tell anyone else.

CRAPCRAPCRAP

2009-05-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

Today received back the rest of the results. & i got one A one B one D and five Cs. AWWWWWW D: both maths also C . sian. Both tchers keep hinting at they're very disappointed in me because i did below expectations. They make me feel so .... -.- ! I did study for it. I did tried my best. But i just don't like MATHS ! ): & i cannot imagine myself doing maths during june holiday. Its even more depressing than not having holidays.

NEVERMIND !

i want to go play with my meowmeow already.

RESULTS

2009-05-21T15:27:00.005+08:00

Firstly ....... KRIS ALLEN WON :D

Secondly .. i failed my chem .

SO . My day was like,

First period, chinese i looked like this --->

Next was emath& i became like that --->
Then english -------------------------- -->
AFTER RECESS, Physics --------------->
then... CHEMISTRY--------------------->

THEN i went home . My father asked about my results and i thought i was dead. Then he said not bad . i was like . haha X:

i hope i pass my amaths anyway. :(

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞
你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

啊~~ 谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受你没想像中爱我

MYEs are over :)

2009-05-19T15:26:00.002+08:00

YIPEE !

(:(: anyway, i totally screwed physics as well.

So i brought my meimei to school yesterday, and it almost killed me ! TT First she said i was too childish for her , then she claimed that i'm her pig ( she's supposed to be MY pig ! )
G: 我有一只猪很像你 leh.
ME: 哪一只?
G: 你啦!
ME: WHAT?!! 我?!!
G: 当然啦!不是我的猪 then 是我的狗 meh?
after that she said she bought a penknife to kill me.

DECIDED NOT TO CHANGE :)

2009-05-16T11:31:00.001+08:00

Blogger is much much much much better than Wordpress. Wordpress is so complicated , just like maths ! O:

I'm going to meet XIAOSHI soon. HAHA.
but i'm still depressed about maths -.- !

OOPS I'M DOOOOOOOOOMED

2009-05-15T22:26:00.005+08:00

Before everything went wrong, we went to ecp for picnic :D

i know, my meimei looks so cool right ! HAHA (:

This is wonderwoman :)

This is pig :)

Today i killed myself.
1) By not sleeping enough
2) By forgetting to bring my bestfriend with me for chemistry !
3) By not reading the questions carefully and stubbornly don't want to learn sets.

So i was unable to calculate any values for chem , which is very depressing. I realised my bestfriend's importance ! ): i think i'll fail emaths ! zzz, i bet its because 70 % careless , 30 % SETS!$!@#~! I don't know why i'm so screwed today. So now i'm so scared i'll make the same mistake for physics and emathsp1 on monday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUNPING!

2009-05-10T18:23:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you , happy birthday to honey , happy birthday to you!

I'm sorry i didn't wish you on the first minute of your birthday , but that doesn't mean i don't remember ! (: Thanks for being such a great friend! You're 15 now. (: I hope you'll be happy always yah! Although sometimes i couldn't be there for you ( and i'm very sorry bout that ) but i'll always love you. You're the GREATEST BESTEST SWEETEST LOVELIEST HONEY in the world .SOOOOOO,i hope you had a great birthday ! I love you ! :D

2009-04-24T20:53:00.002+08:00

I wonder why people lie. They do it so easily. If i lied i would feel bad the whole day , i wonder if that applies to those who lied to me too.

Should i permanently change to wordpress ? heheheeee.

2009-04-19T22:12:00.003+08:00

If you can't find me here, maybe i'm there .

(changed the link, i think the previous url weird weird one. )

slack

2009-04-19T19:49:00.003+08:00

I wish i could press fast forward, just to see if you're worth the wait.

I didn't do anything much this weekend. Not even homework. DAD don't allow my family to go church !!! & the myes are coming. 11more days actually . I still could not differentiate between discursive and argumentative ): bleh :p i need something interesting in my life. I'm getting bored.

my sis likes to spray the house with perfume. She bought it for 2.90. & smells like those high class toilet.

A bug just flew and landed on my bestfriend(mathnotebook) ! O: i'm gna kill it ! How dare it touch my bestfriend D:

10seconds ltr- its under my contactlens case. hehehe, its never coming out.
muaahhahahhha.

GOODNEWS!
my ~~piggy~~ BOBDOG bank is getting heavier ! :DDDDDDDDD

a+b-c x d =abcd :p

2009-04-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

Ever stared at a math question for one hour and still don't know how to solve ? well, happened to me plenty of times. & how do you expect me to be optimistic about it ?! I can't help but spend more than 2hours on math almost everyday ! Its driving me nuts and i'm venting it on people D: ! & the worst thing is tomorrow i've a math test -.- ! & yes , i spent one hour staring. again. I CAN'T DO LINES ! math is the most horrible problem i've encountered in my 14 years .

horrible note to self :
i have three best friends.
- maths textbook
- maths notebook
- calculator.

& HAPPY IFD ! :D
thanks honey for the card :)

2009-04-13T20:18:00.000+08:00

Think what a better world it would be,
if we all, the whole world, had cookies and milk about three o'clock every afternoon
and then lay down on our blankets for a nap.

GOOD FRIDAY

2009-04-10T18:00:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was sports day :D no lessons but woke up around the same time and had my AMATHS test ! O: the test was okay.. at least i HOPE its okay. X: reached bedok stadium around 12 . It was too early so munping, daesia and me went seveneleven. Walked a bighugeenormoushumongous round before reaching . hehe.
( REALLY SORRY IF I PESTERED YOU GUYS TO BUY THEM ! D: )

You all know what day is it today ! :)
Its the day we remember Jesus died for us.
&
Nabilah's birthday ! happybirthdayalien . love you vmuchmuch.

different

2009-04-07T21:36:00.003+08:00

My house look so empty now ): i somehow kind of miss my messy house . 'was late for school today -.- ! i took my own sweet time to walk to the bus stop and the bus came a minute early so i missed it .Sigh , sosuay loh T.T Nevermind i will be super duper early tomorrow :D Math's okay , only that i would fail my test with flying colours and i can't be bothered anymore ( after spending one hour on HALF a question ) .

unfortunately , after 16 months, i still miss you.
I like you hair . hehehehehehehehe.

Typical Wednesday

2009-04-01T19:48:00.003+08:00

Great news everyone! my meimei reads twilight ! -.- i'm sure all the pages will come out after she finish reading. HAHA . & so my dad wants to sell the house ! O: Maybe i'll be sleeping on the streets a few months later. But then my house so messy , i wonder who would buy it ! HAHA.

Aiyah , i forget what i want to post already ! everytime like that one ! D:

Earth hour thingy

2009-03-29T18:33:00.002+08:00

OK, FIRSTLY I WANT TO ADMIT I AM S-L-O-W. ( i think everyone knows that , so , nevermind. XD) i didn't know there's an earth hour thingy. My sis said there were ads everywhere. @.@ but i didn't even see one D: Its like everyone knows except me ! So , obviously i didn't take part in it. But i still love earth kkkkkk . more than you :P so yeah , i hope there's still next year !

somehow this picture reminds me of netto ! lol :)

March is going to be over already . D: one month later would be EL P1 ! -.- i think i've forgotten how to write a narrative essay already. All i know now is argumentative/discursive (& no matter how many times people tell me its different, i still feel its the same) which i'm exceptionally bad at.

i want to lose my ez-link card and get a replacement with a nicer photo. HAHAHAHA.

& btw,
i found someone more kuku than me ! :D finally..

there's so much i wna say

2009-03-28T16:10:00.005+08:00

D: or :D

Can you believe it ?? i actually found the interest to read again ! i love sad stories with happy endings. They just make me feel , sad . I realised i've forgotten to bring home my lit notes to study .Ok , things to do : SS !!!!!!!! , Two lit test (oc +tkmb), Chinese Tx , Chem test , Physics Ws and Eng essay , MATHS ;D jy me ! i serious have no time to please anyone. & Its funny how some people are never in fault for anything they do , i just thought everyone makes mistakes.

& i totally cannot stand impatient people who scold their way to get the things they want ! -.- so lah ! they wait one minute they scold already . ( so sad for the person selling D: ) & what about the people who waited longer ?! %$#@%#$@(^#! somemore cut queue . Are people getting selfish lately ?

People are always talking about how hard it is to find a good man,
but nowadays it's hard to even find a good person.
It's so hard to just even find a person to talk to,
someone who will just listen and not judge,
someone who will just take you as you are.

BRITAIN

2009-03-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

i spent 4 hours yesterday + 4 hours today doing my SS project on healthcare in Britain.
-.- i think i'm going to turn British, if i am going to spend another hour tomorrow .

yes , i know i'm crazy for spending 8 hours doing it! ... i just hope its enough ):
ok, then i spent nearly an hour doing 2 maths questions and now i have to 'somehow' find time to do history .

ARGH !!!!!!!!!! D: I've got no time !!!!!! HBQERCTI )$!@ C@)RFQ

i want to buy time.

2009-03-24T21:22:00.001+08:00

2009-03-24T20:31:00.004+08:00

Everyone's changing . It's time for me to change too.

Haha. sometimes i feel like i'm talking to the wall. they don't talk back , just like you, they don't reply. But wever . I should talk louder and maybe it would echo back.

So PE today . No more pilates(?) so we had to run 3rounds -.- ! i can't run D: * remembers the ~~last~~ alot of times i ran till my face turned white* But i still ran tho , with xiaoshi :) then standing board jump , it felt 'hard' because the ground didn't feel soft like last time. Didn't have the black colour thingy instead we had measuring tape(?) . Maths made me feel stupid. i went to draw the thingy when it was already given below. i only realised it after like 237898196 minutes. We finally did get to touch the apparatus(?) at chem lab today. I like BEBE ! but PIPE & BURE not bad too.. (: Chinese tingxie went well because teacher allowed us to 'open book' HAHAHAHA :/

After school went home with netto. she don't want my money :( haha.

I can't believe i just typed what happened today out. i rarely do that. because i know nobody likes to read my boring life >< .

First day of term 2

2009-03-23T18:47:00.003+08:00

It went pretty well i guess. Just 10 more weeks to go! (: Yay , no cca tomorrow . i can go ~~shopping; out with friends ; be happy .~~ do my homework. Weeeeeeeelll. Nobody is free anyway.

What must one do to be considered as a good friend? What's good? What's friend? If i have not been a good friend , how good are you? Because i tried to be there for you , when you have never needed me to be there. Have you done the same ? maybe .

Sometimes we expect more from others because we know we'll do so much more for them.

homeworkhomework

2009-03-21T20:39:00.003+08:00

ohnoooooo. Its already Saturday night ! D: i doubt i'll finish my homework on time. *Sigh*

so i went to csc alone -.- just now . nearly couldn't find :P Haha. My laogong gave me ring ! lol, so sweet luh. ♥ . I like it , and its pink !I received free balloons from them :) thanks xueer and daniel. (: TEC won the consolation prize :) very good already ! like got 8 out of 40 plus schools get something leh. Heehe. After that Xinyun accompanied me to bedok to eat ! Aw so nice of her :D

back from camp (:

2009-03-20T16:15:00.004+08:00

I don't know why but i like this picture. Haha.

I'm back from enterprise camp !! :D Guess what ? Netto's my laogong ! lol. (: Me and her group combined cause many people didn't turn up for e camp. I guess the most memorable part of the camp was the nightwalk. Somebody threw a lightstick on my head. Don't know who -.-
It was hard to sleep at night even worse than in Pahang O: But at least there are clean water and no big scary insects.

Somehow i feel that people are lying to me , those who are the closest to me. I really don't want to know you are just like the others.

----
waitwait, i got somemore to add.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA:D so funny why are you so funny. You're so funny its actually predictable. You're so predictably flirtatious .
Everything i want to slap someone , somebody else hit me instead :P then i'll forget i actually wanted to do it to you.

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want.

!@@$#!@#$%$#%^&^%*%@#%$

2009-03-13T20:22:00.002+08:00

D: What hurts the most when you're being lied to ? Knowing that you ain't worth the truth. Nevermind.I stop believing in you 6months ago.

I brought linnette to school this afternoon . It was raining . I was drenched and so was lin. However we still walked happily to school . But suddenly she slipped . After that i cooked for aunt and then went to fetch Gillian home. She used the umbrella to poke me . So i poked her back . Then she called me ignorantpoop. So i called her nincompoop . So after i reached home, i bathed and went out to meet honey . After that i went to fetch Gillian and Linnette home. again... Gillian pushed me and i flew . After a long walk , we finally reached home But they threw my key in and locked me outside the house . But i called my parents and my parents scolded them .

honey, cheer up! ily .

happybirthday.

Evening under the stars :D

2009-03-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

It was great ! :) Though there were some problems with e av crew .. Haha. My sore throat is getting worse and my nose is runny. ( i bet you don't know. ) I'm am really tired X: i can't even taste well ! :(

If you're not wonderwoman , please DON'T expect me to be superman.

I'm kind of disappointed lately . Have i not gave you my best ? Have i not cared enough ? you don't know how much i sacrificed for you. I spend 80% of the time trying to please you.You don't know. You didn't know my life is screwed as well. Because all these while , you only thought about yourself, & how people are mistreating you. But , what about me ?

Sometimes it feels likes even when i screamed HELLO , nobody knows i'm here. They just don't reply.

I don't want to go on knowing that I mean absolutely nothing to you.

Crisis

2009-03-08T16:03:00.003+08:00

Crisis is where Christ is .

Ohno. Its going to be Monday soooon. Hah , So i'll be having amaths retest and emaths test next week. (: I'm going to study l8r . i spent 40minutes doing one question of maths yesterday & then found out that i copied the question wrongly . oops . Haha.

No, i'm not sad. i'm happy . I just kept everything to myself. :D

Heavyhearted

2009-03-07T11:16:00.004+08:00

; 你让我的好变成一种罪

2009-03-06T15:35:00.000+08:00

.... somebody threw my lollipops into the washing machine .
-.- grr.

Rainrain go away .

2009-03-02T19:10:00.002+08:00

School was fine today :) Mr Choy didn't come for the lesson , so we were given free period ! :D It may seem to be a wonderful thing but actually to me its not. Because half of the time i was daydreaming & finding something to do. Sigh , i felt so helpless at that time . lol. Then after school same thing. I went with honey to her hmtl class . i got nothing to do there again. 3/4 of the time i was trying to find something to entertain myself. Haha , next time i shall bring tons of work to school to do !

I realised that when the sky is pretty in the morning , it will most probably rain later that day. So cute right. haha.

here fishy fishy

2009-03-01T20:48:00.002+08:00

I went to church today ! :) it was good . We must always remember what God did for us ok ? :) I finally got myself an assessment . Haha . yeap , its maths ): Anyway , You all should see how Dinah jie jaywalk . Its very cute loh . esp when she wear high heels. I shall video it down next time. Sigh , tomorrow's Monday again. Hmm , two tests ? -.- why are there tests every week ?! GAHHHHHHHHH D:

Its very digusting , hope you can stop it .

Trying to find something interesting

2009-02-28T23:59:00.004+08:00

HELLO ,
I just love Saturdays :) haha . I think i'm addicted to petsociety . ( yeah i know its bad BUT they're absolutely adorable ! nobody can resist em ! ) Anyway , i just received some horrible news. Amos Swee you are so dead !!~!~!~~!$# TC^#%!%@ c . Lie to me again . TSK. soooooo disappointing! Shouldn't have trusted you again -.- next time i swear i'll bet 100 bucks.

Nevermind , i won't let this ruin my mood :D YAY ~~tomorrow~~ finally going church ! I can't wait. haha .

I realised how much i've missed you ): even though i tried my best not to think about you , i missed you even more now. Its been a year and two months . *wipes away tears*

Its be-you-tiful , my friend . so stop being someone else. please .

My blog was music deprived .

2009-02-26T23:50:00.005+08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

wheeeeeee , i got 2/10 for amaths class test . & im going to fail ct 2 . whats with all the Xs man -.- aren't they the same ?! then why are there so many values of x ? hmm.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

tell me the difference.

I AM HAPPY . VERY HAPPY . SUPER DUPER HAPPY . AND WILL ALWAYS BE HAPPY .

look at that ^ .

2009-02-25T00:34:00.003+08:00

D: I CAN'T BELIEVE IT . Am i really getting emooooooooooooooooo ? or influenced to be . i'm a terrible person who deserves to be stressed

&. sorry hon. my bad ):

2009-02-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMI ! :DDDDDD

LALALALALA

2009-02-20T13:57:00.003+08:00

imy.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH ! *BANG THE WALL* !!!! I'm gonna get 0/10 for my class test. Whoops ): & there's like 5 tests next week ! -.- or are they six ? @.@

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWEN ! :D

hehe, & kimmi's birthday is coming soon . ^^

i tried making honey go compass point just now . XD lets see whether she'd gone or not .

:DDDD

2009-02-16T20:02:00.002+08:00

YAY ! : ) i passed ! hehe.

i'm here , i'm always here . its just that you weren't here for me to be there.

HEARTS & HEARTBREAKS.

2009-02-15T21:58:00.004+08:00

I went out yesterday to marina square . Its nice to hang out with friends on vday :) I saw couples everywhere , holding hands , hands holding flowers . so sweet :) haha. But then , they're singles everywhere too ! :D I'm so glad honey is getting married -.- lol. Yay I'll have a wedding to attend soon . lol. (: Anyway , MATHS is killing me !!!!

& to those who are heartbroken :

If he's the one you love and the one who makes you happy, no matter how long you've liked him and no matter what other people say, you should keep trying and waiting, because one day it may just be worth it.

VALENTINES EVE .

2009-02-13T16:25:00.003+08:00

Yay , tomorrow's 14Feb . Which is Valentine's day ! :D But today's Friday 13th . Haha . (: I received alot of chocolates . (okay, maybe not alot but still many. ) & a very dead fish. THANKS ! :D Anyway , i don't know why i can't really finish ANY of my tests . haha i guess im stupid and slow . but wever X:

2009-02-10T19:41:00.002+08:00

Valentine's coming! :D SUPPORT ENTERPRISE OKAY ?! :) People around me are changing, so drastically .

Headache

2009-02-07T22:12:00.006+08:00

THINGS I DID TODAY : Eat , Watch Tv , Eat , Think of what to buy for valentines , Went to shop for vday gifts with honey , Eat , Think of what to buy for honey , Search for it.

&&& i still haven't really found what she wanted . i going desperate already lol.

;i used to have the most amazing friends.
i still have the same friends.
but some just no longer amaze me.

I don't get it . You can spend 20hours studying. & not spare a second to say hi to me.
GRRR, nevermind , shall not think about you ! :D

HAHA, Honey , i also very touched.
`Cos you stopped drinking honey ice blend !
♥ :D

Really .

2009-02-04T18:50:00.003+08:00

Haha. I'm going to be really busy really soon which would make me really stress and really sad ): oh well . But if i pass my amaths test i will be really happy ! :D But it seems really impossible tho . I've to practice 100000000000000 sums of maths questions and squeeze 250+ cheem english words (+ meaning & learn how to apply them) into my head before i sleep tonight . Sheesh . its going to be really hard and i will be really tired.

2009-01-31T12:57:00.003+08:00

1 Peter 3:3-4 (New International Version)

3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.

10000000000 thanks to honey & amos :)

2009-01-29T21:28:00.003+08:00

I've been feeling weird these few days. Not sad not angry not disappointed , but somewhere in between. Its hopeless , because no matter how hard i try , it just won't make a difference. I feel like talking to somebody , but then , no words will come out right.

Friends.

2009-01-25T19:42:00.010+08:00

photos . :D

This is from crystal's blog :) because i don't have the ' four of us' together photo ):

Toyrus. Next time i will carry TEN elmos.

honey & me .

We're all wearing pink! :D don't look @ my kuku face.
look at "JESUS LOVES YOU" above instead .

Haha , i know my editing skills not good , but i want to try . XD hehee. quite fun ah .
i miss my friends . how we used to be . ]: ohwell , whats done is done.

You seemed to be fine without us. I don't know if you really are or just acting strong. Whatever it is, i don't know you anymore. Maybe , what i knew about you were all just a masquerade of who you are.

It's amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart can take.
-Nora Roberts

YAY NEW SKIN:D

2009-01-24T22:18:00.003+08:00

HEEHEEHEEHAHAHAHOHOHO ( The guide in Pahang taught me this) :D

(: People have been asking me why i didn't change the orginal blogskin. Well , at first i really didn't want to. Because i was lazy and i liked the original layout itself. BUT , I love this skin . It took me quite some time to get the fonts & everything right , but its worth it :) I(L)JESUS .

hehs , since only my close friends view my blog , theres really not a need to put up a tagboard .

btw , if i didn't link you , i'm soooo sorry, i've lost your link :( i will link you up if i remember .
hehehehahahoho .

i'm home ! :D

2009-01-23T21:38:00.003+08:00

Hello !

:D it feels good to be home again . i won't miss Pahang . ( except maybe the pretty stars and the beautiful sceneries there) on the other hand i missed (1) Family & The clique (2) The toilets in Singapore . (3) The clean waters in Singapore . (4) My bed, pipi , bobo and blanky . (5) The food in Singapore. (6) The lights in Singapore. (7) Sleeping .
As you can see, everything i missed is in Singapore.
& I've got cuts and bruises everywhere ):
Heheheh ! : D

I won't be posting about what happened there .

Byebyeeee!

2009-01-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

i'd be somewhere in the middle of the jungle soooooooon . i think :) in case i die there ,
Jie can have my clothes . Mei can have my toys . Mama&papa can have my diary ! the clique can have everything else :)

i will miss everyone ! but don't miss me ah .

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding; -- Proverbs 3:5

I'm sure God will see us through it all ! :)
I'll be back on friday !

xiaomaomi

2009-01-16T22:39:00.006+08:00

i miss my xiaomaomi ! argh , why can't a cute little kitten appear in front of me NOW so i can keep it again.
): This is xiaomaomi .

see ! her head so small .

she like to hide under things -.-
(gave her fries but she dont want eat. XD )

she likes the mirror !:D

cute right ! X:

Maybe she doesn't appeal much to you , but nevermind . haha . i miss her so much.

My hotmail screwed up :(

2009-01-11T18:29:00.003+08:00

Grrrrr. ): i'm changing to gmail for awhile. (: I miss my the clique , how we used to be . I wonder how people changed so much within such a short period of time . heh . I am so LOUSY in physics and maths . Ohmygosh . i think i spend like 3hours doing 6 easy questions.

Weird people

2009-01-10T06:22:00.003+08:00

HI ! I slept from 530 to 530 . i was so tired when i came home yesterday . /: i wonder how some people can stay up the whole night. ( i know you can't do it ) . I'm kind of hungry now , Didn't have dinner last night .hmmph. Might be going to temasek poly open house ltr .
ps* they got balloons .

btw , i thought Bobdog was Snoopy . X:

Against all odds - Mariah Carey and Westlife

;And you coming back to me is against all odds
That' s the chance I've got to take.

staying awake

2009-01-07T19:26:00.003+08:00

Poor teddy eh :( But that is how i feel now . I'm suicidal . XD joking. But its gonna be a sad year this year. If i get too stressed up probably i'll follow mr teddy above . Anyway, heard that the locker person coming tmr. Yay , finally (:

2 Corinthians 4:18 (New International Version)
18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

@.@

2009-01-05T20:57:00.004+08:00

Second day of school . sigh. I REALLY CANNOT STAND HEAVY BAGS D: when is the locker person coming man ): Anyway . Good thing is that i've got my pink bag. X: i know will look very 'what' . but , i don't care what others think :P i like it. i don't know why , i feel STRESSED already . ): & i miss you . Tomorrow's gonna be a loooooooooong day . *Sigh* Tuesdays are usually worse than Mondays.

More lessons = More books = More weight = More sad.

But you're just a boy . no, you don't understand.

First day of school

2009-01-02T16:33:00.003+08:00

GAH ! I CANNOT STAND HEAVY BAGS. ITS KILLING ME! ( its kinda worse than having your heart broken you know D: ) I don't understand how some people could carry like , 4kg of books to school everyday . hehe , nevermind .

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!
- BE HAPPY.

I can't believe honey put my kuku face on her blog ! O: ~~i'm going to post her unglam pic someday.~~

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2009-01-01T14:07:00.005+08:00

It is sad when you're walking down the hall and someone asks,
"What's wrong?" and you tell them, "I don't feel good."
And when they go, "Awe, what hurts?"
All you want to say is, "It's just my heart."

Hello , Happy 2009 ! (: haha . i went to Marina with sam , connie & laura yesterday . Its 100times worse than national day you know ): soooooooo squeeze-y . Had to take a taxi home @ 2am alone . zzz. lol. lucky jie come and rescue me with $$. But the fireworks were nice & friends were great !

BEFORE that , i went out with honey & dearrest .they're super funny . But they kept laughing @ me & my kuku face . lol. show you all next time . x3 them.

I know its a new year and i'm supposed to be happy .But i can't. 2009's gonna be a very stressful year. School's gonna be hard . It seems like they had EVERYTHING changed . ( & its gna be another year without him.)

BUT its okay . I still love everyone (:

OLD

2008-12-28T20:17:00.003+08:00

This is baby Joel ! HAHA . Before honey scream , it's my nephew not your quackquack. I'm AUNTY already . O: wait . i already am before i'm even born! -.- I've a nephew older than me ._. Sigh. I feel so old ):

Church was okay . & i'm starting to get used to wearing long pants! X.X

thanksgiving tomorrow

2008-12-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's the last Sunday of the year :) Die die also must go church & give thanks for this year . ( though it was a year without you. D: ) But its okay . It'd be better next year , I hope ! (:

I AM FINALLY TOUCHING MY HOMEWORK ! HAHAHAHAHAHA ! but still a loooooooooooooong way to finishing ALL of 'em .

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

2008-12-25T23:57:00.006+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ! :) Today is a very very special day !:D I (L) JESUS !

Why - Nichole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
You said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"

(: It was a great day today . OK , maybe it was not . It was sad today . But still great ! :D because its Christmas.
It'd be okay . Haha .

Romans 8:38-39 (New International Version)

38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

4 more days till christmas!

2008-12-21T17:04:00.002+08:00

& i still got tons of presents to buy.
i bought nicole & munping's already . so basically i'm left with everyone else ! :D I've no idea what to get for you all you know :( *sigh . no time no money too . Nevermind , i hope i'll think of something tomorrow ! XD I really need to learn how to not walk like an elephant ! X: almost everyone complained that i've been walking too LOUDLY . HAHAHAHAHAHA ! but seriously , i think its the shoe , not me!

i can't wait for christmas!

2008-12-19T14:17:00.006+08:00

:D i watched Twilight two days ago . It was good. But not as good as the book though . Edward's hair is so messy! -.- It could be better . Heard that they're planning to make New Moon . Hope it'd be better. Christmas is coming soon . All i want for Christmas is not to have a need to want anything at all. Haha . Anyway , i went out with Crystal & kimmi yesterday! I'm so glad to see them again !:D

"What are you waiting for?"
" I don't know, something amazing i guess"

onions

2008-12-14T14:03:00.003+08:00

I don't like onions . I don't cut onions . I don't eat onions . I think there's a higher possibility of me crying because i ate an onion than when i'm cutting onions.
tip: Chewing on gum while cutting onions can help a person from producing tears.

YAY! My sister's coming back from Taiwan today! :D & I'm allowed to go out next week ! :D heheeeee.

2008-12-13T00:19:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna knock my head against the wall and have a concussion until i forget about you.
:D

I WANTED TO SHOP!

2008-12-12T20:43:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :X you know what ? nevermind . I think i'm hallucinating X.X

anyway , they said goldfishes have a memory span of 3 seconds , longest 6 months . WELL i think its true . Fishes don't remember things . HUMAN FISH OR FISHFISH also the same . They don't remember me . They don't remember what they did to me! i think all started 9 years ago -.- I never liked fishes ever since . Ok , maybe just one. & it shall be the last. HAHA:D

Part of me wishes we were like goldfish
They only have a 3-second memory
That way I would never remember who you were
Or what you did too me.
You’d just be this person I kept seeing, but never knew.

ON A DIET !

2008-12-11T21:18:00.003+08:00

These few days i have sleeping problems /: Don't know why , maybe there's a monster under my bed . But i sleep on the upper deck , so my sister who is sleeping below is the monster. Yeah , sometimes that really makes sense. Ate pizzas for two days. X: ARGH ! I'm supposed to be on a diet ! ASDFGHASDASAF! Nevermind, I'm *invisible* to him anyway . I want to start on my homework , but homework makes me sad!
-.- so i don't know what to do now.

ps, i updated uh !:D
HAHA-HAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHAHAHA(:

Last night I hugged my pillow and dreamt of you.
Someday, I wish I will dream of my pillow and I’ll be hugging you.

:D D:

2008-12-08T22:55:00.006+08:00

Life doesn't hurt until you think about it ,
how much things have changed,
who you lost along the way,

and how much was it your fault.

I think Jesus is hot !:D
Aunt brought me to Bugis today . I didn't buy anything . XD ALL THOSE PRETTYPRETTY STUFF COSTS AROUND 100plus . I can't afford them ):
The concert today was GOOD ! I've been touched again by Jesus . & the guy acting as Jesus is quite cute . haha /:
do you have any idea what you’ve done?

you took the only thing that beats in me.

):

2008-12-07T20:34:00.002+08:00

I AM SO SAD .

SORRY! X:

2008-12-06T16:56:00.003+08:00

I'm giving up a guy who I was convinced was perfect for me,
for someone who my heart knows, really is.

Its hard to say iloveyou when i don't feel enough love for you.

The truth may hurt but it's those lies that kill.

& i don't want to lie to myself anymore.

And I've got to apologize for pushing you away.
And it might be hurting you, but I can't help myself.
Each & every time you try to reach out to me, I want to give in.
It's killing me inside, yet I can't stop being so stubborn.

Sorry .

Always have the strength to move on. And remember when
you do move on, what a blessing it was to have had
that person become a part of your life.

& Nicole . ITS TIME TO COME HOME!

SHOPPING!

2008-12-05T18:50:00.003+08:00

HAHA YAY I WENT SHOPPING TODAY !!!!! :D I think we walked for 5hours or more. I'm super tired now , but super happy too! Thanks honey for the dress , iloveit(:

LAZY

2008-12-04T16:15:00.002+08:00

HELLO,
today, yesterday & the day before were boring. sigh , stayed at home the whole day. i miss nicole . My life is so boring that i've got nothing to post about ! Forget it .

ijustcan'tgetthatweirdfeelingtogoaway.

Someone entertain me please.

2008-12-01T16:49:00.003+08:00

I really should start doing my homework soon , shouldn't i ? heh . Maybe ,awhile more :D anyway .PETSOCIETY is so cute ! haha . X: nothing to post about already. z. Today's so boring. I want to sleep .

ANOTHER ONE !!!!!!!

2008-11-30T20:09:00.002+08:00

Jiejie went to ~~hongkong~~ taiwan (-.- keep mixing those two countries up. aiyah , but China & Taiwan to me the same mah. XD) already ! We sent her off early in the morning . sigh , another one left . one by one . I'm going to miss them *wipes tears away* But anyway! THAT MEANS THERE WOULD BE PRESENTS FOR ME WHEN THEY'RE BACK! :D however , don't know that nicole tan will come back or not. still no news from her ):

btw. Munping, i saw a chocolate duck , i nearly ate it. Then i thought of you . & decided not to .

Multiply it by infinity, and take it to the depth of forever, and you will still have barely a glimpse of what I feel for you.